Miserable

As I drove to campus at 4:35am, all I could think about was how miserable I was. I was thinking about what I would write in this post and here's what it would have said: "I'm miserably tired, miserably hungry, miserably exhausted, miserably over this, miserably over school." Yesterday I didn't sit down for 10 hours straight, yes, 10 hours. The worst thing is that it's the regular routine, blegh. So I worked for 10 hours, managed to throw back some food that I had hidden in the pocket of my hoodie, then ran to class late and really all I remember is about the first 2 slides and then the rest of the class I fell asleep about 3 or 4 times and tried to not be completely rude. Then I went and trained my ladies, who always cheer me up! I headed home in the wonderful Austin traffic. I got home at 7pm (14 hour day at that point) and still had to read for biomechanics, read for conditioning, start my biom outline, work on my lab due tomorrow, clean up the wreck of clothes in my room, oh yeah and sleep? If I had gone to bed the moment I got home, I would have gotten 8.5 hours of sleep, all I can do is laugh at that. Needless to say, I didn't work out yesterday. Honestly I don't know that I will get to workout this WEEK!

So those were the thoughts in my head this morning. Now I still feel miserably tired, miserably exhausted, miserably out of it and miserably stressed but I feel a lot better about it. Less bitter, more put on a happy face and deal with what you got yourself into and be glad that I have the ability and opportunity to all of this. How can I be bitter when I got into grad school on the first try?! How can I be bitter about getting the chance of a lifetime to intern with Football? Surely I can't be bitter about my TA position that pays me a salary, paid for school, and gave me insurance! That's absolutely ridiculous! and hello, who said I have to compete and be hungry and weak? no one, but me, myself and I.

On that note, it's a FANTASTIC day and I am SO grateful to have the life I have... the life that I worked so hard to get and now have, with wonderful, beautiful people in it!!