This is how it really is...

I love putting on my game face and acting like nothing will stop me, nothing hurts me and that I can make it through anything. No competitor likes to show their weak side and let others know that it's really as hard as it is. The truth is - it's really, really, really.... really f'ing hard and I really hate it. 99.9% of the competitive world isn't going to tell you that, or even elude to it. Because of this, and all the questions I get, I feel like it's time to lay it all out there. This blog isn't really for anyone and I don't care if anyone reads it or not, but if you'd like to then I hope you have fun and feel free to leave a comment or question.

I'd say I'm a pretty happy person in general. I like to make people happy and I like to have fun and I don't like to complain, I just do it. On that note, this blog is going to see everything that is actually going on in my head.... that's the point. At times, I'm going to seem like a really grumpy person, or beat down, frustrated and over it, or someone you would never want to be friends with. Sometimes I'm going to be happy, elated, determined, ambitious and you might want to be best friends with me.

Everything that you read here is going on in your friends head that is preparing for competition. The only difference is: 1) they want to keep you as a friend 2) they want to have your support 3) they're on so many thermogenics, mood enhancers and 5 pots of coffee, that they can't help but be smiling and happy. In real life, I'm that person, but that's not why I'm making this blog... because that's boring and any future competitor will be let down when they find out that contest prep REALLY SUCKS.

I also really hate writing and I'm bad at it, so sorry if it's kind of lame sometimes.